methadone | Concrete Confessions

A picture of the writer Gore Vidal, who looks to be in his twenties. He is a classically handsome young man with a strong, straight nose and full lips curved slightly upward into something that is not quite a smile. He stares somewhere beyond the camera, looking fierce and contemplative.

In Search of Lost Time: New Year, 2026

Holiday 2025 life updates: An original poem, plus reflections on childhood, living abroad, my relationship with my fiancé, and my thoughts on three memoirs that I have recently read. I also discuss my hopes and plans for 2026.

Dec 28, 202518 min read

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I'm Back

Fall 2025 life updates: Going viral on YouTube; Trump's E.O. criminalizing harm reduction services; my writing projects and methadone taper.

Nov 6, 20257 min read

A graph showing opioid effect versus logarithmic dose for full agonists, partial agonists, and antagonists

Video: Man in Opioid Withdrawal Explains Opioid Withdrawal

How mu opioid receptors work; what happens to them during dependence / addiction; and what causes ordinary and precipitated withdrawal. Explains receptor dynamics, antagonists / agonists (full and partial), binding affinity, downregulation, and related concepts.

May 24, 20252 min read

Three Treasured Poems, Hunter Biden's Pardon, & Sundry Life Updates, Thoughts, Memories

Three of my favorite poems about life and death and some updates on what's going on with me, my methadone taper, and the blog.

Dec 8, 202418 min read