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![The chemical structure of the opioid SR-17018, whose full name is 5,6-dichloro-1-(1-(4-chlorobenzyl)piperidin-4-yl)-1,3-dihydro-2H-benzo[d]imidazol-2-one.](https://static.wixstatic.com/media/6cc57b_ad00bc2577934afa9b419309044f328f~mv2.png/v1/fill/w_250,h_250,fp_0.50_0.50,q_35,blur_30,enc_avif,quality_auto/6cc57b_ad00bc2577934afa9b419309044f328f~mv2.webp)
![The chemical structure of the opioid SR-17018, whose full name is 5,6-dichloro-1-(1-(4-chlorobenzyl)piperidin-4-yl)-1,3-dihydro-2H-benzo[d]imidazol-2-one.](https://static.wixstatic.com/media/6cc57b_ad00bc2577934afa9b419309044f328f~mv2.png/v1/fill/w_300,h_300,fp_0.50_0.50,q_95,enc_avif,quality_auto/6cc57b_ad00bc2577934afa9b419309044f328f~mv2.webp)
SR-17018: Great Promise; A Grave Warning
SR-17018 has been hailed as a "magic bullet" fix for opioid addiction, which can produce painkilling effects without tolerance or risk of overdose. Is the hype justified?
Nov 30, 20255 min read


Reaction Vid: Pam Bondi Saved My Life (and 258 Million Other Americans')!
In an epic stroke of idiocy, Attorney General Pam Bondi asserts that the fentanyl seized at the border over the past three months has saved 258 million U.S. citizens' lives (current U.S. population: 340.1 million).
Jun 15, 20252 min read


Perfect High
There once was a boy named Gimmesome Roy. He was nothing like me or you. / 'Cause laying back and getting high was all he cared to do. / As a kid, he sat in the cellar, sniffing airplane glue... /
Jun 1, 20254 min read


Video: Man in Opioid Withdrawal Explains Opioid Withdrawal
How mu opioid receptors work; what happens to them during dependence / addiction; and what causes ordinary and precipitated withdrawal. Explains receptor dynamics, antagonists / agonists (full and partial), binding affinity, downregulation, and related concepts.
May 24, 20252 min read


Dangers and Drawbacks of 12-Step Programs Like Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous
I've been extensively involved in 12-Step programs like Alcoholics Anonymous and Narcotics Anonymous for a good chunk of my adult life, but I've become disillusioned with them. This video explains why I believe that they can be unhelpful and even dangerous.
May 11, 20251 min read


Dating / Engaged to / Married to an Addict? Nine Questions to Help Determine the Future of Your Relationship
Nine questions to help you determine whether you should stay in a relationship with a partner who is struggling with addiction.
Apr 27, 202531 min read


Video Intro to My Opioid / Benzo Addiction Story + Update on Methadone Taper
Twenty years of opioid / benzo addiction in the U.S. and abroad during the apex of the failed War on Drugs. Update on my speedrun of methadone detox.
Apr 20, 20254 min read


FDA Approved: Dreams Do Come True With Dice (Ladicetrole)
Dice (ladicetrole) is part of a novel group of combined pharmacologic / virtual reality treatments known as Positive Visualization Actualizers (PVAs).
Apr 13, 20253 min read


Beautiful Boy: Not Quite It (Movie Review)
A conflicted review of the 2018 movie Beautiful Boy, which is about a father who is losing his talented, beloved son to crystal meth.
Apr 6, 202517 min read


Butternutters Still at It: Syracuse's Renegade AA Group With a Body Count
The Butternutters are a renegade Syracuse AA group who deny the reality of mental illness and advocate detox without medical supervision.
Mar 23, 20256 min read


Cotard's Delusion Among Addicts With Near-Death Experiences: Are We Already Dead?
Am I dead already? Incidence of the strange belief system called Cotard's delusion among addicts with Near-Death Experiences (NDE).
Mar 16, 20258 min read


Carl Jung, the Red Book, and Shadow Work
Intro to Jungian psychology, including shadow work and its implications for recovery from addiction.
Mar 8, 20259 min read


Nitazenes (Benzimidazole Opioids): The Next Battle of the War on Drugs?
Info on nitazenes, also called benzimidazole opioids, a group of potent, synthetic opioids that are increasing in prevalence in the U.S.
Mar 1, 202513 min read


Social Prisoner Theory
Is modern society becoming an open-air prison?
Feb 16, 20254 min read


D.A.R.E. Nation: What I Would Say to My Younger Self About Doing Drugs
My thoughts on the D.A.R.E. anti-drug curriculum that I grew up with & what I would say to my younger self about drugs.
Feb 9, 202510 min read


Snapshot: An Addict Remembers 9/11
A story from a New Yorker who was addicted to heroin at the time of the September 11, 2001, terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center.
Feb 2, 20253 min read


Taking a Break
My thoughts on the "two arrow" model of pain vs. suffering from DBT.
Jan 25, 202510 min read


Scientific Frontiers: Deep Brain Stimulation (DBS) as Addiction Treatment
Exploring deep brain stimulation (DBS) of the nucleus accumbens as a treatment for refractory addiction to opioids and other substances.
Jan 18, 20259 min read


Chemical Blitzkrieg: Four Elements of the Modern War on Drugs That Originated in Nazi Germany
The intriguing history of the Third Reich and mind-altering drugs, including amphetamines and opioids. Based on Norman Ohler's "Blitzed."
Jan 5, 202510 min read


Four Scenes, Five Bathrooms, Twenty Years: Heroin Addiction Revealed
Four short scenes depicting the surreal highs and lows of heroin addiction, all of which are based on experiences that I lived through.
Jan 1, 20254 min read
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